Monday, August 14, 2006

oh wells. i m sure marcus would remember the day i exploded in the admin room. my poor fellow councillors got a glimpse of it today la. it been a long time since nic tan time bomb went out. but i guess the stress really got to me la. the stuff and everythings been bothering me over the last week or so. its like homeworks been piling on me, really really tired, council works been tiring, committee members not meeting deadlines, the ability to not satisfy majority of people with the council shirt, and i guess the worst of all would be needing to comfort people when u urself are not feeling great, and when ur comforting seems to be redundant. can u believe it, i felt so depressed, i was contemplating just turning off my phone and staying out the entire night. didnt help the fact that someone played a practical joke on me by taking my phone. when that happened, couldnt keep the fake smile any longer so i just went boom. and poor tables and poor doors. really sorry to all the councillors whom i daoed and basically scared la. but thats probably the worst side of me u ll ever see. haha. on a lighter note, my committee members, hahaha, nic tan can get angry one k, so please meet ur deadlines.

so with my downcasted and rather pai seh and depressed feeling, went to sit alone at the grand stand for awhile, decided to turn on some christian music, at first i was like just sitting there thinking of how horrible everything had been, den its like the presence of God came and it was just so overwhelming and before i knew it, i was like crying. but the funniest thing is that, when the presence of God comes, and takes control, u just feel this peace in ur heart and its almost like u dun even know why u feel so peaceful, den after that, everything was alright. thank you Father for making it alright again. tubulent life man. haha.

noticed some funny things today, when a guy is head over heels in love with a girl, he

1) has no problem talking to anyone but her
2) before he talks to her, he would want to ensure his breath doesnt stink
3) he acts super love sick and self indulgent [lol, which is rather amusing in my opinion]
4) tries his very best to measure up with everything she does
5) he gives her a nic name
6) he would rather observe her from afar den speak to her up close
7) he cant stop mentioning her and portrays her to be seemingly flawless. haha.

haha. this sort of thing, cannot po po ma ma one, must go for it, its usually the get to know her, talk to her about stupid things, school, homework, cca, den after that can share jokes, some entertainment, den the problems, basically start as fren and work ur way up la. haha. jiayou man! somehow just looks so drama. funny from a third person view.

heh. i sound like an expert right, oh wells, been there done that, but the last time i had this type of crush, never worked out, heh, realistically speaking, most people u end up liking and actually end up happy with are usually one of silly people u hang out with and get to know everyday. and if the others would by chance match u with one of these silly people, u ll luff it off like it was the dumbest thing u ever heard on earth. but den again, dats my opinion, feel free to prove me wrong. either way, close intimate relationships start off with simple frenships. heh.

|cowpoo| 11:18 PM|

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